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- Sproglet has actually LOST weight over the last week. He's still alert, chirpy, wetting nappies, pooing, etc, but just skinnier I guess.
- Pediatricians seems to be well booked out in advance. (Four weeks??? Thank god someone cancelled.)
- I seem to have nipple thrush. Off to dr to check it out today. Maybe that's what's causing the weight loss of sproglet. Plus I had a cold at the beginning of the week.
I get quite upset every time I try to explain this, but people keep making "there there" noises, and it seems to help.
As I was leaving the community nurse, there was a pile of about 6 or 7 kids fooling around on the road. So I'm being careful, and as I turn out of the community health centre, one of the tiny kids runs up and starts trying to touch the car while I'm driving! I beeped the horn until they stopped, and then pulled over onto the side of the road. I was shaking and angry and upset and terrified - since having sproglet, I worry about other people's children more too! I jump out of the car, and by this stage there's just two little aboriginal boys, they looked to me to be about 4 and 6. It was the 4 yo who had been running up to touch my car. They thought they were going to get a beating and a screaming. I said "Come here," and gestured, and they eventually did, the older one holding the younger one back to give him a chance to run if he needed it. Finally, when they were close enough, I got down, so I was about their height, and said "Do you want to see my baby?". They were stunned and surprised, and didn't know what to do. So, I asked again. I'm almost crying, I'm still shaky and upset, but I think they didn't notice. Children don't see things like that in the adults in front of them. The youngest one eventually said yes, so I went around the car and opened up the car door, and showed them Vincent. I didn't take him out or anything, just let the two of them crowd in a bit so they could see him. They thought he was very cute. I was trying to tell them, "You guys were that tiny once. Don't do stupid things, your Mum will be very upset if you get hurt" but I think the message was too long. They were enchanted, but as I shut the door on the car, the eldest of the two got his stupid arrogant grin back, and as I left the rest of the gang had come back, and were eating chocolate they had found on the road under my car.
I'm still upset and over wrought; my message never would have penetrated, but I can hope that at least they one day stop and wonder why this stupid white woman showed them her baby when they were fooling around one day on the road. Maybe. Seriously, I doubt it. I've been crying on and off all yesterday and today. When I rang the pediatrician's office, I even cried on his receptionist. On Chesh, and on Mum. :-) I was hoping to get some shopping done, but instead I went home, at half a family sized block of chocolate, chinese for lunch and then KFC for dinner. I feel almost pre-menstrual. *sigh*
I'm hoping to check out an electric expressing machine. The hand held one I have here is annoying me. :-) I have been experimenting with breastfeeding lying on my side on the bed, and it's nice that way. Sproglet is still crying during feeds, so once I have been to GP and pediatrician, if ped doesn't say anything useful (like: "Yes, it's the thrush causing the problems with him feeding,") then off to a lactation expert I will go. I like this breastfeeding thing.
Since Sproglet has been crying so much during feed times, I have been worrying that I amnot producing enough milk, so hence the attempted expressings which have been pissing me off so much because the data I am getting is inconclusive. IE, I can't tell if I'm crap at expressing, I don't have the attention span for it, if the expressing thingy is too old, or if there is just no milk.
So after Sproglet had been feeding for about an hour, and was finally asleep, I sucked on my own nipple. Now, the funny bit is I was surprised when I got breast milk! Well, duh! WTF was I expecting????
LOL
Anyway, back to feeding again. I think he's awake again. :-)
- Pediatricians seems to be well booked out in advance. (Four weeks??? Thank god someone cancelled.)
- I seem to have nipple thrush. Off to dr to check it out today. Maybe that's what's causing the weight loss of sproglet. Plus I had a cold at the beginning of the week.
I get quite upset every time I try to explain this, but people keep making "there there" noises, and it seems to help.
As I was leaving the community nurse, there was a pile of about 6 or 7 kids fooling around on the road. So I'm being careful, and as I turn out of the community health centre, one of the tiny kids runs up and starts trying to touch the car while I'm driving! I beeped the horn until they stopped, and then pulled over onto the side of the road. I was shaking and angry and upset and terrified - since having sproglet, I worry about other people's children more too! I jump out of the car, and by this stage there's just two little aboriginal boys, they looked to me to be about 4 and 6. It was the 4 yo who had been running up to touch my car. They thought they were going to get a beating and a screaming. I said "Come here," and gestured, and they eventually did, the older one holding the younger one back to give him a chance to run if he needed it. Finally, when they were close enough, I got down, so I was about their height, and said "Do you want to see my baby?". They were stunned and surprised, and didn't know what to do. So, I asked again. I'm almost crying, I'm still shaky and upset, but I think they didn't notice. Children don't see things like that in the adults in front of them. The youngest one eventually said yes, so I went around the car and opened up the car door, and showed them Vincent. I didn't take him out or anything, just let the two of them crowd in a bit so they could see him. They thought he was very cute. I was trying to tell them, "You guys were that tiny once. Don't do stupid things, your Mum will be very upset if you get hurt" but I think the message was too long. They were enchanted, but as I shut the door on the car, the eldest of the two got his stupid arrogant grin back, and as I left the rest of the gang had come back, and were eating chocolate they had found on the road under my car.
I'm still upset and over wrought; my message never would have penetrated, but I can hope that at least they one day stop and wonder why this stupid white woman showed them her baby when they were fooling around one day on the road. Maybe. Seriously, I doubt it. I've been crying on and off all yesterday and today. When I rang the pediatrician's office, I even cried on his receptionist. On Chesh, and on Mum. :-) I was hoping to get some shopping done, but instead I went home, at half a family sized block of chocolate, chinese for lunch and then KFC for dinner. I feel almost pre-menstrual. *sigh*
I'm hoping to check out an electric expressing machine. The hand held one I have here is annoying me. :-) I have been experimenting with breastfeeding lying on my side on the bed, and it's nice that way. Sproglet is still crying during feeds, so once I have been to GP and pediatrician, if ped doesn't say anything useful (like: "Yes, it's the thrush causing the problems with him feeding,") then off to a lactation expert I will go. I like this breastfeeding thing.
Since Sproglet has been crying so much during feed times, I have been worrying that I amnot producing enough milk, so hence the attempted expressings which have been pissing me off so much because the data I am getting is inconclusive. IE, I can't tell if I'm crap at expressing, I don't have the attention span for it, if the expressing thingy is too old, or if there is just no milk.
So after Sproglet had been feeding for about an hour, and was finally asleep, I sucked on my own nipple. Now, the funny bit is I was surprised when I got breast milk! Well, duh! WTF was I expecting????
LOL
Anyway, back to feeding again. I think he's awake again. :-)
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Date: 2005-09-29 12:44 am (UTC)From:I used to be a breast-feeding educator, and I'm happy to come over and watch you express, see if I can give you some hints.
And don't underestimate the misery of nipple/baby's mouth/baby's gut thrush. Nilstat drops are your friend.
And I always hand-expressed, and found it was far better than any manual or electric pump since you could keep adding nipple stimulation as you expressed. I would catch the milk in a large plastic kitchen bowl.
Yes please! Thanks! Ta! Yes!
Date: 2005-09-29 12:53 am (UTC)From:I'm off to see my Dr today, I'll grab some Nilstat on the way home. Do I need a prescription? I was going to go to the chemist yesterday but was so upset about the aboriginal boy thing I went straight home to a) feed him, b) wee, and c) cry a lot.
However, today is a new day! And I have run out of chocolate so I will have to hold together today! Although prky has thoughtfully supplied me with chocolate mudcake. Wot a god.
So, do you want to wait until the drops have had a few days to work and see if this makes things better? Or as soon as you are free? What works for you? And what sort of a bribe would you like? Lunch? Wine? Both? :-) I might invite
Sorry about the double response. I had Fe's name wrong.
Re: Yes please! Thanks! Ta! Yes!
Date: 2005-09-29 12:54 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2005-09-29 01:15 am (UTC)From:hoping that the dr's and
if you need anything, just yell out...
Re: Yes please! Thanks! Ta! Yes!
Date: 2005-09-29 02:21 am (UTC)From:And I could come over this afternoon, if you're going to be home. I wouldn't get there until about 3.30 probably, since I work until 1.30. Seems important to do something about reassuring you reasonably quickly, since the calmer you are, the better baby feeds.
I'm at work on 94818393 if you want to talk to me directly.
Re: Yes please! Thanks! Ta! Yes!
Date: 2005-09-29 02:27 am (UTC)From::-)
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Date: 2005-09-29 03:00 am (UTC)From:Re: Yes please! Thanks! Ta! Yes!
Date: 2005-09-29 03:55 am (UTC)From:Take care
kids
Date: 2005-09-29 06:47 am (UTC)From:But in any case I think that stopping and what you said to them was beautiful. And good for your own soul even if they don't understand.
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Date: 2005-09-29 10:18 am (UTC)From:And you have every reason to be shaken/upset over the kids. It really can mess with you for a bit. I hope that something sinks in for them.
Re: kids
Date: 2005-09-29 11:40 am (UTC)From:(on a less serious note)So the moral of the story is ...
Save karma for a rainy day when you need to axe murder someone :-)
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Date: 2005-09-30 03:29 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2005-09-30 03:43 am (UTC)From:I know i haven't poosted my views on co-sleeping, so I'm not annoyed.
:-)
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Date: 2005-09-30 07:55 am (UTC)From: