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My hand hurts. My ankle throbs. I feel kinda numb and dis-associated with everything. My friend was ready and braced to go to jail. He has put his affairs in order, and everything is done except for his will. He pleaded guilty in February, and this morning was supposed to be his sentencing.
I saw him during the week and he was OK. Just... waiting. Glad it will all be over. That he can pay and get it over with and then start to rebuild.
Except they've moved the sentencing back another two months. Now he has to rebuild himself enough to function during this time while waiting, once again, to be locked away.
And once again, I'm caught between too many conflicting emotions, and a real sadness that things have turned out this way. I'm angry at the system which can take a guilty plea from months ago and still not have a resolution by now. He hasn't appealed a single thing, and pleaded guilty at the first possible moment. What sort of delays can there possibly be? I just want to cry. I've spent too much time this year crying already, I think! Every time I seem to blog these days I'm crying or near crying.
I saw him during the week and he was OK. Just... waiting. Glad it will all be over. That he can pay and get it over with and then start to rebuild.
Except they've moved the sentencing back another two months. Now he has to rebuild himself enough to function during this time while waiting, once again, to be locked away.
And once again, I'm caught between too many conflicting emotions, and a real sadness that things have turned out this way. I'm angry at the system which can take a guilty plea from months ago and still not have a resolution by now. He hasn't appealed a single thing, and pleaded guilty at the first possible moment. What sort of delays can there possibly be? I just want to cry. I've spent too much time this year crying already, I think! Every time I seem to blog these days I'm crying or near crying.
