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I attended a sweatlodge the other day, and it was excellent. I feel a lot more playful and happy; my happiness seems to be much closer to the surface now.
I have decided that when I say 'awesomesauce,' I will actually mean 'awesomesource,' because I think the source of all our awesomeness comes from within. After all, how can we experience awe unless *we* are open to recieving it?
One of the gifts from the sweatlodge is that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and to continue coming from a position of love in all things. I don't need to worry about other things so much; other things will take care of other stuff. I found this sweatlodge to be a lot less 'work' than the last one, but by the same token, I am also a lot less broken than last time. Last time was more putting the peices of my self back together, whereas this time was more of an affirmation and exploration.
I found it divine to return to a sense of only the immediate flesh. My thoughts were focused and inward, and there was no thought of future or past or present, just existing. I think I need more moments like this in my life. Which makes me have some questions for you all, which I think I shall put into a locked, screened post! I hope lots of people answer. I am curious about much, and I think my curiousity is a sign of my healthier mind and outlook. My curiousity is endless though, and I worry I will offend or upset people with my endless questions and explorations, and then I think 'eh, tough' and forget to ask the questions I have.
I have been thinking more on the last posts that I have written. I've tried to write more, but they sound so wanky I stop.
:-)
I might try again later, we'll see. I had my first coffeedate! It was excellent. I didn't drink coffee LOL and nor did we get icecream. I wasn't too upset. But it's nice to finally start making some changes, and start to do stuff I want to do. I find I get energized by new ideas and my friends, and I have a whole list of people I want to see. One step at a time - it looks like it might only be a fortnightly thing. Gosh we're busy these days!
I did a bit of a garden clean. I pulled out all the brussels sprouts plants. They are forming sprouts, but since the weather is too warm, they're not tightly leaved enough to harvest. I was warned, andI I grew them to see if they would work, so as an experiment I am very happy. As a brussels sprouts lover, a bit less so! LOL
I also pulled out some of the cabbages that are infected with the aphids. *sigh* I have terrible luck with the aphids. I have a spray which I should use more often, but I just don't go out into my garden very often! We have planted out some of the punkins and stuff. My russian garlic is very happy, and my beetroot patch has a strange orange mould in it, that has hardened overnight after spreading out. Weird. I should make sure it's not dangerous, but I'm feeling pretty cruisy and just enjoying a quiet mindless day.
I harvested more peas today. I think I am at the end of the peas, but not bad for three plants! I actually got peas, which is much further than I have gotten before! Yay peas! The single volunteer broad bean has some pods on it too, which is pretty awesome! I also pulled out some cornflowers, because they seem to be *very happy* and are crowding things out a bit. Some of the eggplants survived, which was a surprise.
My beetroot are beautiful, the tomatoes are starting to flourish, and it turns out some of the eggplant survived! They are small, as they have been crowded out, but with the big brassicas gone, maybe they will start to grow a bit.
I have decided that when I say 'awesomesauce,' I will actually mean 'awesomesource,' because I think the source of all our awesomeness comes from within. After all, how can we experience awe unless *we* are open to recieving it?
One of the gifts from the sweatlodge is that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and to continue coming from a position of love in all things. I don't need to worry about other things so much; other things will take care of other stuff. I found this sweatlodge to be a lot less 'work' than the last one, but by the same token, I am also a lot less broken than last time. Last time was more putting the peices of my self back together, whereas this time was more of an affirmation and exploration.
I found it divine to return to a sense of only the immediate flesh. My thoughts were focused and inward, and there was no thought of future or past or present, just existing. I think I need more moments like this in my life. Which makes me have some questions for you all, which I think I shall put into a locked, screened post! I hope lots of people answer. I am curious about much, and I think my curiousity is a sign of my healthier mind and outlook. My curiousity is endless though, and I worry I will offend or upset people with my endless questions and explorations, and then I think 'eh, tough' and forget to ask the questions I have.
I have been thinking more on the last posts that I have written. I've tried to write more, but they sound so wanky I stop.
:-)
I might try again later, we'll see. I had my first coffeedate! It was excellent. I didn't drink coffee LOL and nor did we get icecream. I wasn't too upset. But it's nice to finally start making some changes, and start to do stuff I want to do. I find I get energized by new ideas and my friends, and I have a whole list of people I want to see. One step at a time - it looks like it might only be a fortnightly thing. Gosh we're busy these days!
I did a bit of a garden clean. I pulled out all the brussels sprouts plants. They are forming sprouts, but since the weather is too warm, they're not tightly leaved enough to harvest. I was warned, andI I grew them to see if they would work, so as an experiment I am very happy. As a brussels sprouts lover, a bit less so! LOL
I also pulled out some of the cabbages that are infected with the aphids. *sigh* I have terrible luck with the aphids. I have a spray which I should use more often, but I just don't go out into my garden very often! We have planted out some of the punkins and stuff. My russian garlic is very happy, and my beetroot patch has a strange orange mould in it, that has hardened overnight after spreading out. Weird. I should make sure it's not dangerous, but I'm feeling pretty cruisy and just enjoying a quiet mindless day.
I harvested more peas today. I think I am at the end of the peas, but not bad for three plants! I actually got peas, which is much further than I have gotten before! Yay peas! The single volunteer broad bean has some pods on it too, which is pretty awesome! I also pulled out some cornflowers, because they seem to be *very happy* and are crowding things out a bit. Some of the eggplants survived, which was a surprise.
My beetroot are beautiful, the tomatoes are starting to flourish, and it turns out some of the eggplant survived! They are small, as they have been crowded out, but with the big brassicas gone, maybe they will start to grow a bit.
