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I'm still feeling a bit raw about talking about what happened, and I'm about to get very busy for the weekend, but I just wanted to reassure every one - firstly, that I'm OK now.
Secondly, please please please don't any one think that they failed me. None of you did. You provided love and warmth and support when I needed it most. It's only in hindsight that I can say "Maybe I should have done XXX." It's no one's fault that I got so unhappy; and no one's fault that they couldn't tell how unhappy. Even John didn't know, and he sees me more than any one. So please, remember, you all came through for me. None of you failed me in the slightest.
And while I'm saying that we should ring helplines when we need to, I don't have any experience with helplines, but at least they are people who have an understanding of what's going on. I'd expect they'd have a greater understanding than the normal avberage person, but by the same token, they are human too, and it might not be the right thing for every one in a similar situation. But really, one of my skills is finding out what to do when I'm not enough for a situation, and thankfully we live in a society where there does seem to be help options around that go beyond the every day.
I really do love you all, and thank every one for all their messages of support and love.
Secondly, please please please don't any one think that they failed me. None of you did. You provided love and warmth and support when I needed it most. It's only in hindsight that I can say "Maybe I should have done XXX." It's no one's fault that I got so unhappy; and no one's fault that they couldn't tell how unhappy. Even John didn't know, and he sees me more than any one. So please, remember, you all came through for me. None of you failed me in the slightest.
And while I'm saying that we should ring helplines when we need to, I don't have any experience with helplines, but at least they are people who have an understanding of what's going on. I'd expect they'd have a greater understanding than the normal avberage person, but by the same token, they are human too, and it might not be the right thing for every one in a similar situation. But really, one of my skills is finding out what to do when I'm not enough for a situation, and thankfully we live in a society where there does seem to be help options around that go beyond the every day.
I really do love you all, and thank every one for all their messages of support and love.
