Well I feel completely dead

[callistra]

I have had some food now and feel better.



9:00 - Vinnie throws up his meusli and his milk and everything in his stomach on the kitchen floor. First set of clothes for both of us.

9:30 I ring the specialist and let them know, but that he also perked up almost immediately afterwards, wanting food and drink. We decide it's OK to come in.

10:15ish Vinnie vomits the dry bikkie and watered down cordial all over himself in the car. Unfortunately, I didn't think to take a change of clothes. He ends up naked. His strap on the chair is soaked in vomit.

10:50ish Vinnie goes all snuggly, which is weird. Then he vomits all over me again. He's already naked, and had had a poo, and I'd only taken the one nappy. We just deal. Thankfully, he missed getting it onto his nappy. Cleaned the floor of the dr's office, and my clothes.

11:30ish Vinnie vomits all over himself the 20 odd mLs of very watered down cordial he managed to drink at some point. I have no clothes, no other nappies, and the blanket I have been using is starting to be very chunky. I hug him lots and apologize, but he is just going to have to wear it until we get home.

He manages to fall asleep, and when we get home I clean him up and he gets abother 40 minutes ish of sleep, during which time I manage a coffee and toast and some frantic chats with people and phone calls to figure out if I need to do anything. general consensus: he's still passing water and vomiting is not the end of the world. Decide to just do the wait and see option, and offer him water if he wants anything.

2:20ish - Has a bit of a vomit. He gets really distressed, because he has vomited everything he can, but he's still dry-retching.

3:00ish I get some lunch. It has onions in it. *sigh* My burping is bad even though I haven't eaten anything except the toast.

4:30 - small vomit. Not too distressed.

Nothing since, and he has perked and been exploring and having a wonderful time. Drank about 80 mLs of very watered down stuff at Mum's, and has kept it down so far.

Yay!

Other notes on today.
- The roof man rang somewhere between vomits and getting to the specialist. They will ring us next Wednesday if the Monday after that promises to be the right weather for roof removal and replacement. They now have electrician's email and phone number, and he only mentioned Monday, so I am assuming things are now on one day.
- The specialist is a very very very old man. He asked me some questions, one or two I thought were... odd. He asked me if I had any problems with delivery, to which the answer is no. He also asked about BF. I keep thinking I can almost understand why he asked, and then my brain goes....er, nope. I have no idea.
- We are booked in for an EEG appointment since the length of the convulsions (15 - 20 minutes) is apparently very long. Most are only 2 - 3 minutes.
- We are booked in for another visit afterwards to discuss the results.

I didn't get a chance for a nap, and kind of ended up dozing while holding vinnie in the afternoon. This didn't really work too well. Now I feel completely shattered. But less completely shattered than before dinner. :-) I really needed to go to mum's for tea, a) for a decent meal and b) my house is strewn with vomity clothes and stuff that I need to pick up and c) I just needed a rest.

I think that covers everything.

Comments

[baby-elvis.livejournal.com]

i dealt with no crises from blinky today, but dissolved into a heap of tears on the floor of her room - which led to her sobbing because i was. she gets so upset when i cry - puts her arms around me and cuddles me, but is very distressed about what to do. bj had to come home and rescue us.

i look at tomorrow with fear.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Oh god I hate that dread feeling. Vinnie pats me when I sit down and sob, like I did when I was trying to help Splanky get to the airport. It was just the last straw and I sat down and sobbed and bawled and ....

I hate the feeling you get sometimes when you go to bed and you just *know* tomorrow is going to be the same. You love the kid, and you love having special time, and the special smiles, and all that... but there's the other bits where you don't know what to do with them and you find yourself watching Shaun the Sheep for the fifteen millionth time, or Playschool (all three daily episodes on ABC 1 and 2) and you just ...wish for company to do it all with. Or something.

I really think this house, married couple, kid(s) and full time jobs thing is the most divisive, lonely, and abusive to adults way of raising children. The whole 'we need a village' thing is correct. Whoever came up with the nuclear family idea and said it was a good thing needs to be shot.

[baby-elvis.livejournal.com]

You have described what I am experiencing perfectly; that feeling of endless days stretching out ahead - it makes me shudder just thinking of it. And I also feel as though I am just getting by and not meeting her needs. Yep, we need a BIG village. God, I wish my parents were younger or that bj's parents lived in perth.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

And a part of that, I think, is that you feel like there's nothing for YOU. Nothing for you to look forward to, nothing exciting to get passionate about, just endless days filling time waiting for the child to be old enough to go to school or be interesting or...

I get that feeling, even though John tries really really hard to make sure I get me time. But even having other people in the house can be such a distraction.

[chaosmanor.livejournal.com]

I didn't cry today, despite being at home with a ten year old (!) with croup. Apparently, kids grow out of croup at about three years old. No one has told my son that.

Random crying is far more common than the dominant culture believes. And just typing that has made me weepy.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

:-(
I have been feeling weepy this evening. But I just had a nice shower and feel so much better!

Now I just feel really vague!

[baby-elvis.livejournal.com]

I sometimes feel that I am the only one who feels this way and thus am a complete failure as a mother and human being. Thank god I have friends who will admit to crying as well.

[shrydar.livejournal.com]

eee, that sounds no fun at all. May your tomorrow be better.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun.
:-)
I made some firm decisions today, so things won't be so annoying/stressful next time. Like.... going to specialists requires TWO people now, not just me alone...
:-)

[leecetheartist.livejournal.com]

Vast sympathies! Hmm. Emergency spare clothes & nappy pack in the car from now on?

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Nah. It was only one day in 2 years. I do usually take 2 nappies instead of one, but it was only a direct in and out trip.
:-)

[mynxii.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that today was so stressful!! I hope that tomorrow is better for both of you! Also, as usual, i agree with your assessment of the nuclear family.

I'm coming tomorrow, from work somehow, and will likely taxi home. I doubt I'll be able to leave work till at least 5.30 - which is optimistic given everything going on at present. Will keep you posted.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Well if you need to ring us and we can get you from the train station.

[mynxii.livejournal.com]

That would be great - i'll let you know *love*

[livelurker.livejournal.com]

So, where are we putting this village?

[catundra.livejournal.com]

You poor thing. It really does take more than two parents (and in your case today one set of hands) to raise a child.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

:-)
I always like the idea of commune living. It seemed more fun somehow LOL

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Well, the house next door is free...

[purrdence.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[liluri.livejournal.com]

I hope today is better for you

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun. I am 100% sure it will be. We did hold together yesterday, no sitting on the chair and bawling like a couple of weeks ago.
:-)

[battblush.livejournal.com]

Sorry I pegged out on you yesterday. I went and had a lie down and found I couldn't muster the energy to get up again. I ended up in bed for about 6 hours and even then could only drag myself out because Aiden was knocking on the door and didn't have a key to get in.

I also cried the day away because I am so sick of being sick.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Don't apologize
:-)
is cool. i asked every one else in the universe what to do.
*grin*

[lilysea.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking about you since I read this last night.

(Tried to call last night, actually. (:)

I'm zombie-tired, and so have nothing wise or witty for you, but...

...I'm sorry to hear that your yesterday was like this, and I hope that your today was better, and I've been thinking of you all day today. (:

And I'm really looking forward to Femmeconne. And you rock for making Femmeconne happen. Especially while having a toddler, a pregnancy, and Night's Edge. Have I mentioned that I admire you? (:

And I'm looking forward to catching up with you on the phone, hopefully in the nearish future.